On the longevity of essential works and Ways booth Closed & Open

Why does specific Work have to take so long?
Why is it still possible to believe that one will complete projects begun in a completely different phase of life, books, or creative intentions that involve (and must involve) multiple stages of experience?

Alchemical work is work with fundamental energies, fundamental problems — these are often portrayed as unsolvable or shallowed down to the material disappointments of life. Meanwhile, in 2022, I intend to complete a multi-year, life-long creative plan- or give some externally presentable face.

alchemical cellar in Prague, fot. 2019 MD

Creative works and their value

Picasso used to say that a finished painting is dead, so a work of art at some point, though not finished, should be considered finalized in the sense of being ready for presentation or, in a more critical issue — prepared to bear appropriate fruit.

However, it also happens, especially in essential works, that the fruits cannot appear during the creator’s lifetime. This is never very motivating for authors, so one should make an effort to work economically. Among other things, it is crucial to learn from one’s mistakes, to be flexible, to be able to return after years of stagnation to work on a goal, to learn, if one can, from the mistakes of others, and to take wise advice early on. By daring to change our internal approach and being flexible in harmonizing our own personality content, it will be easier for us to live to see the actual fruits of our labor earlier, perhaps. At the same time, we are still alive, though — it seems impossible to me — while we are still young. That is why it is vital to nurture the smoldering inner fire, even if it is dimmed by darker periods.

It is also said that art if only, tells the Truth: by lying. When working on fundamental truths, it is worth remembering that it is then all the more critical to preserve Truth and inner coherence and to curb what is often too quickly regarded as valuable or indicative of talent, fantasizing in favor of imagination and the formation of a more valuable intuition and the ability to use its manifestations most creatively.

Three kinds of work worthy of a true man

As to the understanding of work as a primary, I must refer to the classics in calling three kinds of activity worthy of a true man:

- work with Truth — and the archetype of the scientist,

- work with Beauty — and the attitude of the creator

- and work with Good — perhaps the most directly valuable but also the most difficult in a proper and uncontaminated way.

These are tasks worthy of man: to persevere in each of them in purity is given to few. Of course, there is nothing wrong with combining these attitudinal values in various indirect and shared forms, as often happens when our work has both a creative and a cognitive dimension and what happens less often when, for example, we want to marry creativity with goodness. It is sometimes assumed that this is not constitutive of art, disregarding the ancient requirement of kalokagathia- the unity of beauty and goodness. The appreciation of the world and people for this bought is purely material and lacks the basis for abiding and satiating the human heart, which gifts bring only spiritual elements. This produces, at best impermanent and artificial results and rarely brings true satisfaction.

On the way to the realization of the works, there is and has been an intoxicating sensation and use, and stagnation, and Nigredo (Night of the Soul and Night of the Mind) — lasting for years (and recurring, never completed in its entirety) not measured by days. After comes Albedo — when we realize and bring us to comfort that what, that which hindered us from being coherent in action and life and presenting what we considered worth living, has burned out in times of depression and despair. What remains we can further ennoble realistically because it is already free of most shadow and small selfishnesses.

fot. MD, collage MD, graphic from old manuscript

Birds fly up: what is down-to-earth in us becomes elevated.

Birds fly down: what is too utopian and too fanciful becomes pragmatic and hardens, coming closer to the ground.

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fot MD

Intentions have been locked in the hermetic personality vessel for a long time to purify themselves. Such a long period allowed them to be quietly heated (one must be careful of sudden bursts of enthusiasm and direct fire, for it does little good apart from farewells and brilliance). The world pays so much attention only to appearances, to graspable phenomena. That is why it mostly gives up and presents others as unattainable, something that seemed to be the Dearest to us from the beginning.

Inner and Outer Work

Teacher’s Advice:

Esoteric, spiritual work is divided into:

- Work on the Outer level;

- Work on the Inner level.

Being greedy for all esoteric, mysterious, but quickly and immediately applicable wisdom and secrets, I received, in the meantime, as Heaven intended, the best and the rarest kind of Teacher: mysterious, not at all in the subject, which absorbed me the most, and seemingly trivial and discouraging golden thoughts. Among them and those that seemed so unspecific and straightforward as to be devoid of substance, such as the remark thrown in by the teacher (who most often denied anything that too easily defined his merits — there is a fundamental difference between denying the values and admitting the faults of a juvenile aspirant, like me, where possible losses are sweetened at once by an idea about oneself that conforms to the concept of the humble brilliant, however beginner, adept, on the road where it is widely recognized that it is a virtue to be humble and to exaggerate in understating oneself and one’s merits. The difference is that, as always, when two say the same thing, it is not the same, though it may give deluded comfort to the follower. The difference is that the master and true adept says what he says. It presents himself or things thus and not otherwise, not to satiate a particular image commonly expected or imagined by himself only as proper, but to attain the maximum possibility of bearing benefit, of bearing good fruit. Therefore the true adept may boast or belittle himself, and the fruits of this, when the wisdom to pick them is ripe, will be excellent.

In contrast, the fruits of modesty or sincerity, however HAPPY, will be insignificant and sour because their sweetness has already been consumed. A lasting benefit comes from actions, including words and advice, whose sweetness is prolonged, both for the receiver and the sender. I write this so that sometimes the Teacher will receive a little of the sweetness due, often without any expected return benefit. This is another condition of their preciousness. And the expectation of benefit is often hidden from us in the sweetness of the impression that we can afford to sacrifice.

When everything seems to be almost ready, if not foresight, then fate will still force us to step back and look at our intentions and ourselves from a distance: the vessel is set aside for another not short period for things to “simmer in their own sauce.”

In fact, like all of life, we simmer primarily in our own sauce.

When the impurities subside, and we can accept this seasoning of ourselves — which is always the most difficult — because Change is so often desired — we fear and resist the most in ourselves.


from alchemical compendium

The saying that all haste only wastes the material comes from alchemy.

Impatience is understandable, all the more so when we have already tested our intentions many times, gained — as it once seemed — everything we could have; lost — everything, including ourselves — and yet only then did we see More.

There is a danger in such a complex and lengthy process that causes so few people to even get to the end, not so much because there is no End (and very well! — The heavens are many, as are the hells, and so many times when we are sure we have seen it all — let us not lose hope that we can still SAVE ourselves).

And it’s normal that no one accompanies us on this road, that everyone must have doubted long ago whether we would achieve anything, not much: that we are really heading towards something important, that we have been running from the very beginning, even more strenuously under cover of all eyes than in plain sight.

The longer we are on the road, even if only intermittently wandering in the fences, the more we realize that, the more alone our work must be, the less alone we become in the realms of the spirit.

And the world seems to appreciate only what can be seen: everyone wants to brag, and that’s a good thing: we boast when something deserves praise. As for boasting, however — see the paragraph above on the difference when “two say the same thing.”

So often, however, it turns out — after time — that what was a reason for such praise and self-satisfaction and recognition of others — was not lasting, did not bring any real benefit, and even did not give a good example to people because their credit did not come from the depths of hearts and proper understanding, but only shared the majority’s opinion or applauded, ashamed of jealousy or disbelief felt inside.

If we want to accomplish something valuable and lasting, something universal that will be a true Gift to Others, we must be in alchemical harmony with the substance of what we are working on.

Here, in art, there is only one answer: Yes, it is necessary — for the work to be a Kalokagathia of Truth, Goodness, and Beauty — symmetry in the mind, heart, and inner truth of the creator.

Even the slightest distortion will spoil the effect, and it is best to start the work from the beginning.

And these distortions are the most difficult to see and the most difficult to eliminate, because it is not enough to be faithful to what has always come easily, as a reflection of our inborn or early formed nature: even if we have always hated Lying and despised the slightest hypocrisy, even if our declared values have been consistent with how we have behaved in life, it is necessary — paradoxically — to bring within ourselves Absolute Attentiveness and Absolute Prudence to know that often declaring and doing according to the principle of absolute truth or justice, Even if it is in accordance with the MATHEMATICS of dealing with the world and with people, it will not be what we NEED to do when we lack the courage and prudence, when we lack the indifference to apparent impressions, when we are afraid of costs and shames, to always do so and to modify our fundamental interactions so that INTENTIONS and EFFECTS are in the most perfect harmony, with emphasis on EFFECTS AND MULTIPLE PRACTICAL Fruits.

This means that — sometimes easy for us from the beginning — because aligned with our own nature, with the desires of our heart, uncompromising — both in Truth and in the form of the message — must — despite this and precisely because it costs extra effort and apparently weakens our idea — be modified and so improved that it will bring GOOD.

All knowledge is meant to bring Good — otherwise, it only gives fireworks — also important — and it is worth shooting them off from time to time to stimulate yourself as well.

For so often, doubt comes.

All doubt is also there to teach us prudence and method. Only when we have struggled for many years with our dreams and yet have not lost them can we see how invaluable help has always met us, coming from Heaven — whenever we have tried to be true to ourselves. All the more valuable when it seemingly disarmed us at the time, deprived us of motivation, frightened us with difficulties or mundane demands for strenuous effort.

If we had treated specific tips, such as this one from Arkadiusz Jadczyk, properly from the beginning: “Only what comes with effort is valuable,” we could have worked and achieved results faster…

But would we?

After all, we are carried away by those moments when we work with joy, drive, and faith when the effects can be immediate when we already know the SECRET.

Such moments have been mine, and they are lovely. But it is those things, forms, works, efforts, refinements, and sometimes, in general, the need for a change of direction or manner so radical that it is challenging to remain consistent with the mental and emotional already worked out and assumed one properly. Such moments are needed. Which are DIFFICULT, not obvious, throw off the momentum, and cannot be applied as an easy and pleasant action — and the extent to which we can implement them without losing the primary goal determines the final value of our work. They also determine the absolute conformity to the PURPOSE. That is, they testify to our fidelity to ourselves.

And this faithfulness has to change, and if our awareness and attentiveness have grown — which is a gift, but also a PROBLEM — then doing what is usually uncomfortable has to be adjusted to it.

If we are on the right track, the boundary shifts make more demands on us. Where is the limit of “forgiveness,” where is the internal balance of gains and losses? Where is the limit of resistance to criticism, and where can we loosen up a bit?

Therefore, it is TRUE that every subsequent step in the GOOD direction is more demanding.

How discouraging that sounds.

Where is the principle: Every next step is and should be easier? After all, that’s how spiritual teachers usually encourage us: they say, yes — it’s hard, very hard, but you’ll see that with effort, it will get easier.

Spiritual teachers usually also immediately add some cool free bonuses to start. Otherwise, they would have few students, quantity counts — that’s how most teachers are — and students. In fact, only the PROCESS — which means years of work, breaks, wrong ways, sick or wrong paths, and sometimes years of despair, if our inner FIRE is still smoldering — gives perspective.

Every next step is more difficult.

But this is also true, as always in HIGHER MATTERS — the logic of CLOUDS works — Multimorphic logic, DYNAMIC logic — so if there is a Truth, there is also a Truth, in its own way, at a given stage, or in a given context, a Contrary Truth.

fot MD

Not only do clouds show different shapes and amorphously transform into each other, sometimes — less often — also, the back of a bird turns into its beak to tell us that roads closed forever can be opened with a brave and wise effort.

It would be ideal to know when to move from EASY mode to — Difficult, now DIFFICULT. And to know what to switch on and for how long to achieve the optimal process without losing any self-improvement and the economy of action and impact.

But the years of struggling with my Dreams, though, required going through episodes when something seems impossible, through stages when the Impossible has become Real — but is threatened by Impermanence, to steps when something has become REAL — IMPOSSIBLE.

(example: this is often the way of Man and his attitude to Love and the possibility of creating a real Love Relationship).

Later, when the fire has not gone out entirely during the Nights and Years in the wilderness, again, much may appear as possible. New territories and new paths may emerge that were previously wholly off the map of the known world.

But let us return to the dialectic:


An excellent teacher immediately suggests a timing pattern most often testable as a rule of thumb:



Like me, perhaps others, there are eccentrics of high rope and extreme heat (there are, however, various lions and various Matthews, as seen even on TV).

They will ride to the resistance where the heart races, and the easier, the better. When a suitable celestial Watchman (and sometimes a whole department of special task agents equipped, experimentally, with a mixture of fire-water and eccentrically extreme low pragmatic balancing) watches over the delinquent, he must to do any valuable work, pass through many, long, sometimes contradictory stages. This is sometimes called fidelity to the heart, and I intend to usefully employ my own former research into these phenomena, where I referred to this, among other things, as “automatisms of passion.”


Someone will prove at first that it is not the case that only effort and toil bring valuable results because, in agreement with himself, he sees after himself that you can get something for free and even unfairly — as he thinks. This realism pays off. It does not at all mean mere megalomania or disturbed perception. It may be a reflection of what he appreciates as noble in himself, namely the — not so frequent and for many complexes — honesty in admitting his own content, usually and commonly regarded by people as shameful (and often not perceived at all in himself, as a classic shadow). This was the case, for example, more than a decade ago, when I examined various esoteric and spiritual theories and suspiciously rejected those that offered too much promise or put us in a better light without adequate justification.

And yet, too, many opportunities, especially in an empathic breadth of understanding of the most complex humanistic and theological issues, seemed as if they were received for free.

Based on these, one could attempt to do and create to cause benefit and bring about good. Still, the consensuses and natural fruits of such attempts brought the lesson that if something is given for free, the value will remain dormant or the fruit will somehow be poisoned or inedible. More the latter in the case of sincere intentions. If the corresponding effort to acquire complementary skills and the related effort to make the necessary balancing of oneself and one’s methods for what is lacking is ignored.

This, however, is the case with characters that are not well balanced, who also do not have the proper nourishment to initiate such harmonization beforehand because they have certain aspects so vital that they last for many years. They can deceive the world and people and especially the author himself, that they are self-sufficient in such a natural drive.


This is often the case with people who have a powerful intellect — sometimes, they successfully achieve a great deal by limiting themselves to this one-sided power of the soul.

Similarly, people of great heart and empathy often accomplish much.

There are also people of iron will who can build whole systems and epochs with determination but are often heartless and soulless.

However, some of life’s unlucky ones have never satisfied themselves and could not with the power and accomplishment of a single nature. In purely intellectual pursuits, they lacked heart and transcendence. On the other hand, in sentiments and emotionalisms or lyric or social works of this kind, they often saw too much naiveté and inconsistency. They saw the misrepresentations or abuses of logic or practicality too clearly.

The Fourth Way

That is why they needed the Fourth Way. Still, sometimes, on the Fourth Way, the element of effort and self-discipline and the need to harmonize oneself deterred them and seemed too far removed from what they had started with as true to heart — from passion, from automatism, from sensation.

Therefore, they headed toward the Fifth Way.

1831 french graphic, fot MD

The Fifth Way

It also happened that — perhaps — the Fifth Way was both in their lives for some reason:

Given and closed.

It seemed that the situation was again closing the way out, at least to where

where there had always been a dream horizon — towards Perfection.

But it could only seem so, even though further Nights of the Mind were necessary,

Nights of the Heart and other reasons for doubt. However, a sure consistency, a specific pattern, a certain texture of clouds, and certain quiet songs of birds suggested that this road is closed and though it cannot be changed, one can go it again, following one’s footsteps, with an extra lantern and an extra treasure map, to make the road also Open to Others.

But having already had so many “pictures of the journey,”
waking up today from a dream,
where My Beloved was with me, I don’t see it that way.

If one tried to do something like that only for People, for Others,
even if it took all our hearts to do it

(even lions’ hearts have their limits, and too swollen, they get sick), there would be no Fire.
There would be no power, strength,
and will because where to draw it from if it is necessary
to be so pure and sincere?

That is why my heart sees it differently, although almost 20 years
have passed since it could look directly, eye to eye.

My heart sees it as the way of the One, the only way to my One.

Life sometimes has to arrange itself to motivate you to work towards the Impossible,
and World can’t be cruel, taking away Love and offering instead: Goodness.

For it is not the same thing.

And you cannot deceive yourself here.

(although others — very often and all too easily).




Former academic lecturer (law, philosophy, economy). Last decade independent artist and researcher, In 2022 finalizing longterm projects in words and images.

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Former academic lecturer (law, philosophy, economy). Last decade independent artist and researcher, In 2022 finalizing longterm projects in words and images.

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